I uploaded my picture Just to see what it felt like A digital fixture In a world that seems so life like So I type The way I feel inside that makes me wanna fight And I try To not mistake love with anything that might feel like hype A roll of the dice I roll up the pain Took many chances Wasn’t left unscathed I bled like rain That washes anew That feeds the growth and so I grew It’s always pleasure I pursue Im a flower Turned out blue I watched the world Open up for other people Like they knew How to place themselves so natural Trust I tried Cause aren’t you supposed to be where you belong Didn’t take long to get that I just wasn’t Why it feel so cold Baby don't you wanna be alone Things are meant to be that way Don't you think it's gotta change I open up But never whole I don't remember I'm getting old Or are they memories so repressed A heavy pain that you confess I tore it down to ease the pressure Try to cure, we're taking measures I am tall and I am grand I don’t think you understand I’m so real that I'm surreal And I cry cause I can feel I scream so I can heal They pray so they can cope In the end we go in smoke and our emotions what a joke The funniest one of all you know the one that pushes us to bawl And roll across the floor laughing, tears are pouring down our cheeks They hurt so much from smiling you can feel it, for weeks The best laugh you’ve ever had Staggeringly sad Because it was so present but you know it’s never coming back I watched the world Open up for other people Like they knew How to place themselves so natural Trust I tried Cause aren’t you supposed to be where you belong Didn’t take long to get that I just wasn’t Why it feel so cold Baby don't you wanna be alone Things are meant to be that way Don't you think it's gotta change

I delegate many things And I never feel adequate Impostor in action My self esteem I decimate Wish I could do it all, instead I pick the right people to do it Their talent my vision Me, in a broken television Courage and strength and wisdom Give me a tap, give me just one reason Give me a fact, tell me I’ll break free, this prison Hardest thing to skew my vision Ingrained in me is I I feel so free when I Don't think about the shitty things I’ve done and realize I got everything I wanted I hit the jackpot But when you achieve something you invent another slot to fulfill Mines never been to make my first mill Note the first cause for sure there’ll be more then one still Cause I’m a warrior I am strong Undefeated In life I do belong Let me get rid of some pain through the weight lifted And when you dream know you’re never wrong I don’t wanna cry no more These feelings I get are hard to ignore Every few days it creeps up on me and it's so strong It can fold me to the floor When I call in sick we both know that it’s mental Say what you will but don't say that i'm fragile I can stand on my own two feet When you’ve been broken you can’t be weak Try to make them feel like they might survive But who the fuck am I to judge Who am I No who are you Who am I No who are you Try to make them feel like they might survive But who the fuck am i to judge Who am I No who are you Who am I No who are you Walk in a straight line you might feel like you’ve won Balanced wisdom na you don’t give a bum I meant a fuck, a fuck about a bum In your own boxed shit, we never try to run He can’t eat, she can’t sleep She got no walls or roof Let’s all agree, that’s not something that you choose We can flex, addicted to the juice Fuck the fame, don't give me no excuse Take it, need it, I don't want it Chronic, promise, honest, fuck it I don't need to try I know I don’t wanna die When i sing my throat be dry When it breaks I say goodbye Common, drama, mama, trauma Blanca soy yo pero I don't fit señora Cross my fingers, Hope for mi vida entera No choice either way, que no sea un dilemma What is right has never been so wrong These are the facts now try to enjoy the song I’m not religious but I do believe in god If it’s too serious that it’s fucking up your vibe Then press the spacebar and get the fuck up Put your coat on and get outside smell the flowers if there’s any left on your block Take your phone and throw it on the ground Step on it, crush it to pieces, chalk chalk What is up, what is down I don't care, got a crown What you think, what you feel Can you try, just be real It hurts but you got this I feel you, I can’t quit They didn’t fuck with me then They won’t fuck with me now Try to make them feel like they might survive But who the fuck am I to judge Who am I No who are you Who am I No who are you Try to make them feel like they might survive But who the fuck am i to judge Who am I No who are you Who am I No who are you

(VERSE 1) I’m streaming, dreaming on the border of consciousness I know that time is passing me I'm hoping that i'll understand the way we are is taught and not how we should be It’s mesmerizing when you think It’s underwhelming when you speak A tic tac toe, simon said so, game over when you go to sleep I think we all clowns All around Everyone knows that we dumb down Our feelings are pointless but beautiful nameless flowers we couldn’t keep When I hold you inside of my heart it's in hoping you'll sweep me right off my feet Illusions come true and if that’s what you want I can promise we'll never sleep (CHORUS) Tell us what it is that you’ve been yearning Missing deep inside of you like someone told you you weren’t good Enough is enough show me where you’re hurting Put a plaster, kiss it better, tell your mother, run for cover (VERSE 2) Frost accumulates on my window sill I just wanna stay I Watch the leaves, they fall, then comes the snow Wanna make it another day Happy to see you and see the sun I know my daddy wished I was a son Odd what you remember when you're young Then a huge gap, then more memories, then you're done Same songs still play on the radio Turn it up, turn it a little more Ambition got you knocking on every door Ambition got you knocking on every door Tell me what is wrong But don’t tell me all Gotta keep some for your shoulders to fall Chin up But your mind on the ground Grounded Less likely to fall (CHORUS) Tell us what it is that you’ve been yearning Missing deep inside of you like someone told you you weren’t good Enough is enough show me where you’re hurting Put a plaster, kiss it better, tell your mother, run for cover

Said I am down to roll I’ve changed my mind I'm not a girl I said oh not Right now The things we say we do but don’t It's nothing new but still I wonder why, oh why I can’t deny that I rely on old ideas that were never mine See I can’t lie there’s something off look through my eyes, Light has faded There ain't nothing alive that can be something else then what it really is I can try to pretend, try hard not to offend, but I won’t really grow I am crazy I am crazy Said I have never lost Control But I’m not me, in fact it's just a role I'm playing I act the way I think I should It's nothing new but still I wonder why, oh why Obviously, i'm losing it, I’m overthinking everything I’ve known See we’re so small but feel so big and infinite But light has faded There ain't nothing alive that can be something else then what it really is I can try to pretend, try hard not to offend, but I won’t really grow I am crazy I am crazy There’s something that must be in the way It’s not letting me be okay Remember the warmth of her hand And the smell of pink mints I get sick with distance Oh let me be myself I don't know how to ask for help Oh what a world this is I'm still that same kid I am crazy I am crazy

If you’re alive Then I am obliged To say hi I was okay But you were always in the back of my mind Every drunk I’ve met was not a stranger at all I haven’t missed you Hyper and an addict Rolling with the baddest Got no friends Always rolling up the fattest I know him telling me that I'm a bad bitch He believed in me before you was born Alternate reality I watch porn Triple x’s with a dash I pop corn Corny ass rhymes for you corny ass bros I'm all bare even when I wear clothes Naked babe Yes at least you tried Said watch yourself You're almost 25 Damn time flies I don't mind Got these moments in my mind I am lying It ain’t fine Just too deep for me to climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out I don’t know if you know this but I cared about you a lot But you hurt me a lot a lot Seeing you on the ground in the parking lot Like what the fuck is it gonna take for you to stop and break There isn’t a bottle big enough for you to take It was fun and now it’s not Every single time we fought You'd have to win at any cost I hate you say you're lost cause we both know we found you You just hated what you saw, can’t stand me right around you I remind you of the parts that you hate the most Act like you've seen a ghost You're just drowning in the wine like you’ve been lost at sea A lifeless body in a body of water surrounding me Now i'm the one who can’t breathe Twinkle, twinkle, little star How I wonder what you are I don’t care about tomorrow Good don’t mean you get rewarded Fickle, fickle fireball What matters most is how you fall Shit I think you're coming down In no time now you’ll hit the ground Hit the ground You’ll hit the ground Hit the ground Damn time flies I don't mind Got these moments in my mind I am lying It aint fine Just too deep for me to climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out Climb out